Angie Tukuafu

The Phone Call My mom called me, saying that the Police Lieutenant wanted to speak to me. My mind started racing in a quick review of the last month to make sure I didn't break any laws...nope, I am good.  Hard to break the law when you are stuck at home and can't drive.  And there is the fact that I just don't do things that break laws, especially to the extreme of the police calling my mother. Suddenly, my brain cranked to Inoke and how he seems to be a magnet for really simple minded people that have a tendency to say stupid things... nope, don't recall anything that would get him in trouble either ;) Followed by an interesting realization that I was even considering the call to be a bad thing!!  If it was bad, why would they be calling anyway?? Let alone my MOTHER?! Will have to emotionally unpack that one later! Several seconds after I heard the request, words finally formed as I asked what he needed.  I most certainly left out my unfounded concerns abo...

  On with recovery, one day at a time...   Two weeks before my follow up appointment in the Electrophysiology Lab and my memories were are still not clear. The little things are still setting me off, and I felt disconnected. unable to even read 2 sentences in a book.  But at least I'm off the pain meds.  There was just an emptiness to my brain that I do not believe I have ever experienced.  I could sit on the deck for hours just staring into the back yard, or binge on Hulu for hours without eating.  Even more unsettling is that it doesn't seem to be disconcerting for anyone else. They keep telling me that I went through a lot and it will resolve on its own, but I mean really, not only did I allow ramen noodles in the house, but I even ate some myself.   And then the insomnia started... Since I wasn't needing to get up in the morning for anything, I felt there was no need to force myself to sleep.  I applied all...